This is something I penned yesterday. I don’t want to forget this experience as I move forward. I feel different. And better.
I’m sleeping more effectively, and I have better focus, better than I can recall in years. I’m learning better portion control, and I feel like I have a better picture of what my body wants for fuel. I decided not to go back to caffeine, for now. I miss the taste, but my energy is far more even without it. I have herbal coffee for taste when I want it. I’m a fan of wine, and I haven’t had any since I started. I kind of want a glass, but I can wait until it’s appropriate (at least another month, my preference), the wine will still be there. I wanted to break some bad habits and start new, better habits, and I really feel like that’s happening. I wasn’t doing this for weight loss, I saw it as a literal reset, a jumping point for getting healthier, but the physical results below are big motivation for me as well. I took pics, but I haven’t decided if I want to share them, yet, maybe :0)
From the 10th of May through today:
-11.75″/-29.8cm (bust, waist, hips, forearms, thighs)
-2% body fat (estimate)
My Ultimate Reset
Today is my 17th day experiencing the Ultimate Reset. I don’t have superpowers and I haven’t lost 50 pounds (though I look like I’ve lost quite a bit), but I feel pretty damn good, and I also have been able to see myself, or more so, my place, in a new perspective. Yeah, it’s like that. I’m not ashamed. I’m thinking about a lot of things.
Today is day 15. The first day of the third week. I do feel different. Inside. I feel quieter, more focused, less foggy.
I recalled an interesting dream from Tuesday morning. I woke up and immediately tried to recall it so I’d remember later. I’m a rather vivd dreamer, but I hadn’t recalled a dream in a few days.
I often mix locations and people together that don’t actually go together, and this was no different.
It was my apartment building from childhood. Huge lobby with one wide, shallow staircase, and two additional to the sides. There was some kind of government office in the basement with all sorts of neat military and historical memorabilia. To the left was a staircase that climbed many floors, made of stone, and there were books and water pitchers on each landing. The top floor was an intimate sort of bar with small tables and a large bar off to one corner with delicious liquor. The barteneders sounded Russian or Skandinavian and were very friendly.
With that, I’m off to my busy Thursday.
Today is my one year not smoking anniversary. There’s more to it, but that’s the bottom line. I’m proud of myself.
The weekend was good. I’ve found myself reflecting, assessing, reassessing. I drove in silence all week until yesterday, when I chose to play some favorite tunes while I ran errands (Q-Tip). I cleaned the heck out of my bathroom Sunday, at least 3 hours, in silence. Usually I listen to music or having something playing on my iPad, but I felt like it was distracting me from my thoughts. I was cleaning, so I just cleaned. And thought. And when I was driving, I drove. And thought. Even when I was cooking in the morning, I just cooked. And thought. It didn’t feel heavy or burdensome. I just thought. I also haven’t recalled my dreams as much this week. I didn’t realize that. Hmm, that might be interesting.
I had some mental food cravings here and there. I need to time my meals better, I think I’m waiting too long between meals. I wanted a glass of wine, I had herbal tea instead. I’m not going to pretend that my increased productivity is not due in some part to my non-drinking these 3 weeks. So there’s that. I think I’m going to have a good week. I just have a feeling.
I hope I’m not getting ahead of myself. I had a good day. Even, steady mood. Steady energy until it was time to be sleepy. I ate a little later than usual but I was fine. I was in a damn good mood, and I feel the same today.
Thursday was day 8, or week 2 “Release” day 1. It was nice. I had a personal day planned and I enjoyed it. I read, cleaned, bought groceries, cooked, ate, and watched television. I felt pretty good. No major aches or pains, just good. I’d like today to be good too.
Today is technically day 8, or week 2, day 1. I’ve completed one week of the Ultimate Reset. I’m down about 5 pounds, and I feel a little lighter on my feet. I’ve had a mild to roaring headache most of the time, which I think was initially from lack of caffeine, but now I’m thinking it’s sensitivity to my medication. It should pass soon. Please.
I learned I don’t have a good grasp on portion control. My lunch containers and measuring cups have helped, alot. I can drink a lot of water. My current daily high is @ 170 ounces. Zucchini and cashews taste great together, and I think I’m losing my taste for miso. I rediscovered a love of fruit. I think about food a lot at night. Particularly medium rare steaks and pernil. Not as much bacon as I expected. I also think about a glass of and old vine zinfandel, but at the same time, I’m fine without it. I still wake up tired, but I’m shaking it off easier. I get really really really tired around 2 am. I’m enjoying the break from spending hours cooking for the week, but the trade-off is spending about an hour every day. I can think clearer today than I could 4 days ago.
I’m looking forward to today.